Today I am mourning the loss of some really good friends. I am running on very little sleep and I'm just wanting to sink into that black, dreamless hole of oblivion to get away from the pain.
My pride and anger caused me to do something so incredibly rash that now I feel as if the earth has stopped spinning, my heart has stopped beating and I stand alone knowing it was all my fault.
Friends are a precious commodity. Don't turn your backs on them in a moment of anger like I did. Trust me....it fucking hurts like sliding down a razor blade only to land in a pool of rubbing alcohol.
I only hope in time they can find it in their hearts to forgive me....